Learning To Read, Shedding Some Tears

My Dear Sweet Noah,

You are 5 1/2 years old.

Your mind is fresh and crisp.

You are a revolving door of imagination, creativity, brilliance and intrigue.

When I look at you I see your fathers eyes, nose and smile beautifully blended with my chin.

You are seek perfection in yourself.

You don’t like it when you can’t reason things out.

You have struggled with learning your letters,

In your opinion.

You know more than you think you do, and have for some time.

You lack the confidence to speak what you think, for fear of being wrong.

I wish I could engage you in games of trial and error, but you will learn the importance of this in time.

Today something beautiful happened.

Something amazing.

Things clicked.

You read.

First 1 word,

Then 2,

Finally a COMPLETE sentence.


Tears rolled down both my cheeks as I watched your mind open and the letters came alive.

Then you did it, you made it even more special!

You said, “Mommy, now I can read to my brother!”.

In that moment of pure, simple splendor you thought about how you could share your new skill

With Collin.

It was beautiful.

He returned your gesture saying,

“Brother I am so proud of you!”

It was beautiful.

It was precious.

It was a gift.

Homeschooling is the road we are traveling.

There are so many curves and detours along the way and sometimes,

Make that OFTEN,

I feel nervous that I am not able to teach you what you need to know.

The truth is, I am so thankful for the opportunity to teach you every day.

I am thankful for the moments of clarity and the times of wandering around in the dark

Looking for the best way to get through to you.

I know you don’t have a choice in the issue of homeschool right now, but Daddy and I

Do not take it lightly.

We have prayed and discussed this issue frequently and vow to do it as long as God leads us to.

We approach it as a year to year decision that requires frequent evaluation.

Baby you are growing so fast!

I am so thankful we get to spend the hours you would typically be at school together.

It would be impossible for me to explain the gift of today.

I love you so much and look so forward to see what the next phase of our journey looks like.



10 Responses so far »

  1. 1

    Celia said,

    Geez, you got me crying!!

    Yay, Noah!!!

  2. 2

    Now I’m wiping tears also! What an amazing experience! And the whole brother thing clinched the reason for my tears! Yay for Noah!!!

  3. 3


    What a great day for all of you!

    (do your boys really call each other “Brother”?)

  4. 5

    Poppey said,


    You know more than you think you do, and have for some time.


  5. 7

    Marianne said,

    Wow!! So excited for you and Noah (Collin too!)! Can’t wait to hear about the amazing accomplishments you and Noah will have this year. 🙂 YOU are an amazing Learning Coach and what a WONDERFUL student Noah is!!

  6. 8

    Susan said,

    So very beautiful.

  7. 9

    Lydia Duane said,

    I am so happy for you Noah!
    My little Jeremiah is 5 years old and he just started reading some words within the last 2 days ! I know just how your mommy feels, my heart is jumping for joy too! knowing that my little man has made a new beginning in life, he was having a struggle with his letters and sounds too, and then today he was like a flower that opened up and started to read some more words! He was so excited he said he can read to his sister now!!
    Keep up the good work Noah !!!!!!

  8. 10

    So beautiful Becky. I’ve been contemplating Homeschooling and considering it even more so these last few weeks. I think we’ve decide to take the plunge, we just have to decide when to start.

    Thank you for these encouraging words. It’s all part of God’s great scheme to push me further towards homeschooling.

    I’m looking forward to getting to know you better as we get more involved at church.

    P.S. And what a testament to your mothering that your boys care for each other and show it in such a profound way. Way to go!

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